Why My Husband is Amazing

My husband has been the most supportive, loving spouse a person could ever imagine. Here's a brief list of his amazingness.

1. He does not complain that I haven't cooked a meal in over a month because my morning sickness is strongest at night.
2. When I'm exhausted, and I want to go to bed early. He comes in the room and keeps me company. He knows I like when he is near me, even when I'm not conscious.
3. When I was battling multiple illnesses and morning sickness in February, he brought everything I needed to the bedroom including drinks, meals, and medicine.
4. He sees our relationship as a true partnership -- we both take care of house work including cooking, cleaning, food shopping, and laundry.
5. He is supportive of my emotional needs even though he doesn't always understand them.
6. He challenges me to be introspective about my decisions and choices. He doesn't cut me slack when I'm being unfair.
7. He gives me attention and space whenever I need it.
8. He understands that my body is going through changes, and he always assures me that I'm still beautiful.
9. He's a really good listener.
10. He never has a problem admitting when he's wrong, he never yells, and he rarely gets mad.

As you can see I have plenty of reasons to love him, and I assure you that I treat him quite well too, but sometimes I still wonder: do I deserve such a wonderful person in my life? I told him once that I didn't deserve him, and he said "It's not about deserving. It's about being there for each other no matter what." He knows me so well. There is no way he could convince me that I deserve his love, but he can tell me that love for each other will be there thick and thin, unconditionally. I think to some extent it is more important that I strive to deserve such an amazing person, to better myself, to treat him with the love, respect, and support he deserves, and that is what I strive to do.

Relationships are so strange. It is no small feat to find a comfortable balance between two people's need. Some how we've managed (and it has always been easy). I wonder how bringing a third person into this family of two will change us, our lives, our balancing.

Feeling Noticeably Better at 14 Weeks

I am finally starting to feel almost like a human being again! I'm still fighting the good fight against nausea, but I've been winning more often these days. The medicine for my bladder infection worked really quickly and I have a smidgen more energy now that I'm not sick. I think my belly is starting to be influenced by the baby. I mean, I always had a belly, but it looks a little pouchier than usual. It's not the most flattering picture of me, but there you have it -- me 14 weeks pregnant.

Now that I'm regaining my humanity, there are things I need to do! I need to clean my house desperately. Damian's been keeping on top of somethings, but he's only one person. Last week I managed to go to the laundry mat, this week the apartment just needs a total overhaul. Soon, very soon, we need to clean out the spare room/ future baby's room. It's currently a disaster, full of stuff that we need to put in storage or get rid of. Some of it is already packed up in totes, but some of those totes need serious going through. Then we have to figure out what gets put away in storage in the apartment, and what is going to go in Damian's mom's attic. Once the room is cleared, I'll feel more ready to start thinking about furniture and stuff.